it's been so long since i've blog hahaha sorry everybody...ain't got the time haih...recently just got very sick...and yeahh exam's coming..so thats why...anyway...the past few weeks i've been down..its like non-stop problems everywhere..it's like i can't do this i can't do that...i dont have the capability to do..and i dont have time and stuff like that...so yeah...its been really down..and just 2 days ago i got sick..now i'm still 60% only..haih..bad bad flu...recently there's this snooker competition...thought i got the form..who knows i lost to tht guy tom...i'm seriously frustrated with him..he play with me like those type of guys who pro like shit..but the next opponent he play is like the worst and it's totally opposite..i mean to me its not fair...if ur like so good at it..why not win it and not just throw it all away by playing so worse..haih..no comment on that..studies..well its been really intense...because we are all chasing against time to get ready for trials and spm..as for me.im waiting for trials..i'd plan to go australia at february to study my college there...so will need the trials results..if its not good then i have to waste my time and wait for spm results then i only go australia for july intake which is actually wasting a lot a lot of time..so yeah...and now i'm in a shitty moment because hell i cant even study and i cant even concentrate...which means im not dicipline enough and if thats so..i cant get good results..and now im sick..and i have the means to study but i cant focus because of the flu..haih..its been really shitty moments...
mid year is like just tomorrow and its freaking moral...and those 36 definition..i havent even touch yet..haih..its really sad...anyway...and on monday it was our class 5S5 class party..i took a lot of photos...for more reference log in to http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=177968&id=637846905&l=a8b68b64dc haha that day was fun..haha everybody was celebrating..we aruba caleb..which is cool..haha and its a farewell party for Mr.Mahandran and teacher's day party for our class teachers..and some are gambling some are even studying would u believe that? hahah we are taking photos..and acting crazy all around...makes it a nice day..haha
there are so many things that i wanted to blog about but..always the times are not right..and haih..missed it..now i've got totally nothing to say...more or less is all about studies and personality and u know life at the moment..hahah i always compare myself to my brothers..and sometimes i think to myself...in other words...oh yes..i think a lot..like everyday...i think and think and think about so many thing...things that i dream of being...things that i dream of wanting..things that should not happen..happened...and things that are going to happen...so yeah..i can say im a thinker and a dreamer..but do all those things that think and dream come true...well that only depends on my effort on that something..hahaha and now i'm sick of trying everything..and i should give up everything and just focus on one thing..and by that i can be successfull on that something and u know not to be half fulled bottle...and so i say...i mean...i tried snooker..want to be the best...squash want to be good at it last time...then came tennis..wanted a career based on that..but no...i choosed badminton..and badminton i cant be the best because i dont have the fitness in order to be the best..but my passion for it is very strong..and music...for me i played the piano and the drums and the guitar too..haha piano grade 5 currently.and there's like until february then i'll leave malaysia and there's no grade 6 only if i take it in australia...and drums i'm just learning for fun..and i want to be great..but i cant go any further than what i'm doing now...and guitar...i cant be the best because i only know chords and not tabs..haih.
in future i want to represent something...like badminton if i could i want to win trophies and i want to represent maybe college next time...piano guitar and drums..i want to make an album and sell...or even a band would be very nice..hahah snooker...when i still have the chance i want to represent the club to go and play elsewhere...but...all of this only depends on my effort...haih..if i keep on thinking there's no point only if i work hard and try to be the best...from my point of view..i think i have a lot of talents only to choose one..thats very hard for me..because in everyway i want to be best and everything..and i think to myself haih...no human in this world are perfect and so i say i need to choose wisely and make a plan and start focusing on what i want to be successfull at...hahahah yeahh...this is one of them dilemma..
i like swing music...dont u all like? i dont think so because why? swing music is very very old..haha i dont know why but i'm fond of old music..like really fond of it..haha jazz and blues and the types of genre that i like listening to..and these days i was really into swing music..singers like tony bennett..haha and so i remembered...last sunday...tek yi was performing at this jazz concert that me and my parents went to..haha he played darn well..eventhough some part are slightly stiff..maybe because its cold...haha that music really is touching..hahaha..how great it could be if im on stage performing...and other people have already done it..what about me? anyway..hahah that night was good at the second part where the jazz band came..haha the first part was the piano and trombone solo...dont really like it though..hahah yeahh..
well hope i get really well soon...and mid year is like tomorrow..and i better be ready now...haha...will blog about it next time..till then...light up the darkness..hahhaa
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