anyway life is full of shit..especially now this few years its not even close for us to think the bed is full of roses..the only time where life is full of roses is whe ur a baby? agree? everybody would be like so in love with u..give whatever compliments...when urfat they say u are such a cutie...if you cry they will give u food..if u cry again..they will change ur diaper...if u cry somemore..they will give u a shower..now agree?
when comes to adolescence..u feel left out..u get to reach out to the environment,society and everything there is to learn about life..and that is when life is full of shits...cause it hurts u...it challenges u...no one will feed u..bath u..change ur clothes...its time for us people to think about ourselves..be mature..agree?
im a kind of guy who doesnt like to stay at one place for a very long time..i'll find something to do...no matter what..but when it comes to doing that something...i make mistakes..i know everybody does it too...and im they bad guy because i dont like to accept advises and people telling u what are ur mistakes is...well it frustrates me...and i'l get angry..well im learning to accept now..hahah
today i went for driving test..it was not the JPJ thingy..but it was a simple test..i kind of screw it up really really bad..i didnt check stuff..i didnt even raise my hands for the parking and stuff like that..it was all because everything was happening so fast and the examiner made it look like it was really casual..and he questioned me..i panicked..and he start to ask a lot of question like the clutch..and im stunned and it was really difficult..cause he is telling me my mistakes and telling me what it is..and im just confused because it was not the same car as the car i used to drive in the driving course there..its harder..and its different and its all complicated..i was really confused..i nearly gave up in the middle of the road..and started to think that driving is stressfull and its not fun at all..and i dont want to drive anymore because its not right for me..i dont click with driving..
and well its all because of the damn car..and its manual..and its all new..and its in a very short of time to understand the car..so yeahh cant blame it all on me..and they way it was meant to drive it was all confused..do we have to step the accelerator to start the car? do we not have to step the clutch when ur decelerating to avoid the car to kick and engine to stop? i mean what it is? i dont understand..i have to ask my teacher this coming saturday..
anyway..SPM is near..i managed to a full paper of biology and chemistry as well as maths..noted on what to study..but havent to it yet...cause its till a months away for the science subject..i'll just do more exercises to identify.. like what is the chapter im really weak at...i mean do the maths..hahha maybe i'll do another full paper for those 3 subjects again..then i'll study the chapters...one full paper doesnt mean anything..well i still got time...and i have to do add maths and physics and those language subjects are still pending hahaha well i got my plan..but i need at least 5 hours a day to finish it all..plus i have to sleep early and wake up early to be prepared my mentallity for SPM..
i hate people who smoke..i REALLY HATE AND HATE AND HATE people who smokes..i might one day be a speaker and just call the government to ban this cigarettes..oh my god..why people smoke? damn..its just really really annoying and its really unhealthy and its really bad..i freaking hate it..i dont know why..makes me sick
sorry mum and dad..well i was suppose to get up this morning and check on the car..i even dare to go back to sleep..whats wrong with me..anyway i just want u all to know that i'll change and yeahh i wont sleep late again..well pray that my dad can handle all the lost things...haih..its really a pity when u just lost all ur important things in blink of an eye..phones cards and everything..haih..i hope those people who is responsible just have the courtesy of just leaving all the things and just take the money rather than make people suffer and have to do more work..haih..why not just take the money and thats it..i mean if u steal a phone..and u sell it second hand what price would u get? its just over a 100..whereas if those people who lost it..they have to pay another few hundred bucks to buy a new phone..and this and that..i mean if the money is in the wallet just take it..leave all the cards behind...i mean if ur stealing cards...dont still cards that u cant even use like bank cards..where u have to register ur names and stuff like that..u cant steal unless the person is there...so why not just steal cash..it makes it easier for everyone..u want to rob the car its find..find a better way to rob can? dont smash car windows..it still cost us..why not use a safer way...u see those movies they can just unlock the car by u know by putting a metal to unlock the car..haih..why cant robbers be more smarter?..are they just so dumb until they cant use their brains?..
anyway..i've been stress about the drums in church..i dont know how to communicate the music with the other musicians..maybe its because we dont practice together often..we cant find the common sense..i seriously we will do it right before watchnight..haih...i hope they wont change anything..like songs and things..well i hope we can just enjoy and not make this all a big fuzz..
AHHH...im getting fatter and fatter each day as it comes...i need to work out..i want to have those fit athletically body which i soon to work out on..hahah its a must....well what can u do to release the stress for SPM? exercise..hahahha anyway ive been playing the piano..since i've passed the Grade 6 exam..i might as w ell learn some songs before christmas..i want to learn it up so i can play it like all the painist that can just play songs..i dont want to be a guy who just plays exam pieces..i want to expand my variety hahhaa anyway Grade 7..i'll do it in australia i guess..because im leaving soon and i'm saddened because i have to leave so many close people to a place where i dont even know anybody that much as i know them in Ipoh..who in australia can be as good as my piano teacher..who in australia can be as fun as my friends? who in australia can be as much as home?..well i guess i have to appreciate every moment of it after SPM..i cant wait..well lets work hard for the last month of our entire secondary studies..until the day we go for college...light up the darkness..
