days..its either im dumb..or ur preposterously dumb

which means we are all dumb in some extent..but the level of dumbitivity (my word) is all depends on how dumb we do things..haha get it?

anyway life is full of shit..especially now this few years its not even close for us to think the bed is full of roses..the only time where life is full of roses is whe ur a baby? agree? everybody would be like so in love with u..give whatever compliments...when urfat they say u are such a cutie...if you cry they will give u food..if u cry again..they will change ur diaper...if u cry somemore..they will give u a shower..now agree?

when comes to adolescence..u feel left out..u get to reach out to the environment,society and everything there is to learn about life..and that is when life is full of shits...cause it hurts u...it challenges u...no one will feed u..bath u..change ur clothes...its time for us people to think about ourselves..be mature..agree?

im a kind of guy who doesnt like to stay at one place for a very long time..i'll find something to do...no matter what..but when it comes to doing that something...i make mistakes..i know everybody does it too...and im they bad guy because i dont like to accept advises and people telling u what are ur mistakes is...well it frustrates me...and i'l get angry..well im learning to accept now..hahah

today i went for driving test..it was not the JPJ thingy..but it was a simple test..i kind of screw it up really really bad..i didnt check stuff..i didnt even raise my hands for the parking and stuff like that..it was all because everything was happening so fast and the examiner made it look like it was really casual..and he questioned me..i panicked..and he start to ask a lot of question like the clutch..and im stunned and it was really difficult..cause he is telling me my mistakes and telling me what it is..and im just confused because it was not the same car as the car i used to drive in the driving course there..its harder..and its different and its all complicated..i was really confused..i nearly gave up in the middle of the road..and started to think that driving is stressfull and its not fun at all..and i dont want to drive anymore because its not right for me..i dont click with driving..

and well its all because of the damn car..and its manual..and its all new..and its in a very short of time to understand the car..so yeahh cant blame it all on me..and they way it was meant to drive it was all confused..do we have to step the accelerator to start the car? do we not have to step the clutch when ur decelerating to avoid the car to kick and engine to stop? i mean what it is? i dont understand..i have to ask my teacher this coming saturday..

anyway..SPM is near..i managed to a full paper of biology and chemistry as well as maths..noted on what to study..but havent to it yet...cause its till a months away for the science subject..i'll just do more exercises to identify.. like what is the chapter im really weak at...i mean do the maths..hahha maybe i'll do another full paper for those 3 subjects again..then i'll study the chapters...one full paper doesnt mean anything..well i still got time...and i have to do add maths and physics and those language subjects are still pending hahaha well i got my plan..but i need at least 5 hours a day to finish it all..plus i have to sleep early and wake up early to be prepared my mentallity for SPM..

i hate people who smoke..i REALLY HATE AND HATE AND HATE people who smokes..i might one day be a speaker and just call the government to ban this cigarettes..oh my god..why people smoke? damn..its just really really annoying and its really unhealthy and its really bad..i freaking hate it..i dont know why..makes me sick

sorry mum and dad..well i was suppose to get up this morning and check on the car..i even dare to go back to sleep..whats wrong with me..anyway i just want u all to know that i'll change and yeahh i wont sleep late again..well pray that my dad can handle all the lost things...haih..its really a pity when u just lost all ur important things in blink of an eye..phones cards and everything..haih..i hope those people who is responsible just have the courtesy of just leaving all the things and just take the money rather than make people suffer and have to do more work..haih..why not just take the money and thats it..i mean if u steal a phone..and u sell it second hand what price would u get? its just over a 100..whereas if those people who lost it..they have to pay another few hundred bucks to buy a new phone..and this and that..i mean if the money is in the wallet just take it..leave all the cards behind...i mean if ur stealing cards...dont still cards that u cant even use like bank cards..where u have to register ur names and stuff like that..u cant steal unless the person is there...so why not just steal cash..it makes it easier for everyone..u want to rob the car its find..find a better way to rob can? dont smash car windows..it still cost us..why not use a safer way...u see those movies they can just unlock the car by u know by putting a metal to unlock the car..haih..why cant robbers be more smarter?..are they just so dumb until they cant use their brains?..

anyway..i've been stress about the drums in church..i dont know how to communicate the music with the other musicians..maybe its because we dont practice together often..we cant find the common sense..i seriously we will do it right before watchnight..haih...i hope they wont change anything..like songs and things..well i hope we can just enjoy and not make this all a big fuzz..

AHHH...im getting fatter and fatter each day as it comes...i need to work out..i want to have those fit athletically body which i soon to work out on..hahah its a must....well what can u do to release the stress for SPM? exercise..hahahha anyway ive been playing the piano..since i've passed the Grade 6 exam..i might as w ell learn some songs before christmas..i want to learn it up so i can play it like all the painist that can just play songs..i dont want to be a guy who just plays exam pieces..i want to expand my variety hahhaa anyway Grade 7..i'll do it in australia i guess..because im leaving soon and i'm saddened because i have to leave so many close people to a place where i dont even know anybody that much as i know them in Ipoh..who in australia can be as good as my piano teacher..who in australia can be as fun as my friends? who in australia can be as much as home?..well i guess i have to appreciate every moment of it after SPM..i cant wait..well lets work hard for the last month of our entire secondary studies..until the day we go for college...light up the darkness..

days..been a dick.

well its wednesday and im not going to school because loongsheng invited me to play badminton with him and i accepted it..it was really not what i want but going to school also got nothing to do might as well just play some good badminton and release some stress..haha i found out that i cant do much in school..just playing and chatting and just wasting my time with friends..haha that craziness..you just cant find anywhere..haha anyway yeahh life's been a dick seriously..and thinking back and just by looking at the past..i was such a dick..hahah i never thought i was such a dick until i realised..anyway i just want to say sorry for the people that i hurt them so deep and so hard...well im truly am sorry..im changing day by day...wishing to be better..but no matter what i was a dick...im still a dick..but im trying to change not to be a dick =) hahah well schools been fun and well boring..nothing much these days..getting myself ready for spm and comparing laptops hahaha now what i want is a laptop and a smartphone..and a drums set and a keyboard and some money to buy some ps3 games =) hahahhaa if i can save that kind of money to buy all that...it will take 4 years =( well its just a dream..

found out that jia xiong is going to the same college same university same course and same degree..hahahaha im just so freaking glad that there is someone who is similar to mine..just that he is going to the february intake and im going for the july intake...deciding whether to follow him or not..that will be great hahah trinity college and university of melbourne..how great it is..anyway life's been like that and it will be like that till spm ends..haha hope it will end soon...theres so many plans..can't wait for it..

piano exams in 2 weeks time...driving test is in 3 weeks time...spm is in 4 weeks time..damn...2 dicky months to go through...laptop that im going to save money and buy is Dell XPS 15. hahah its really nice.. phone well will wait for Iphone 4G..hahah plans after plans...counting chickens before it hatches...study first lah...hahah spm =) light up the darkness..

imagine.

imagine life is being fair
imagine life is simple
imagine time is slow
imagine the world is in peace
imagine theres always love..
imagine you and I
we can be happy and just loving at all times


understanding between the two of us
problems settled even the hardest one
imagine religion is not a problem
imagine when rationality play its part
imagine when stress are controlled
imagine theres a bridge over troubled water
imagine our minds are calm and relaxed
trying to go to a place where it feels like home


appreciating time as it goes
imagine hard work pays off
imagine there's always a piano playing your song
imagine confidence and righteousness
imagine life as the drums rhythm
imagine your the best
imagine God that loves you
imagine that all prayers are heard
imagine sins are forgiven


to win over misunderstanding
to win over chances and luck
to be in a state of winning everything
to be the one in everything
to imagine winning the war from many battles.
to take things as easy as possible
imagine hard times being at ease
imagine everything that is good in this world
imagine, imagine, just imagine.

days..bridge over troubled water

well its been a month since i've blog..well its long..haih..im sorry blog for not blogging..i've been away from this..and i've been with the wind..and i should come back more often..to really let it all out..well..i dont know why? i dont know how? but i feel really down these days...and no one is there to help..even the closest friend i got also dont want to care..maybe its because its the same problem?..i think its because my problem is just too personal..and i wont be able to share it with other people..i dont know..but all i know is that i feel very very down and i've been very very busy..not only that..i also dont have the mood to do anything..just by the computer everyday searching for something to do..or to just waste my time..blog, i know i shouldnt be doing that..i should be studying..just off the phone..just off the friggin computer and just study and let everything come to a halt and just do my thing until spm ends...but blog, my computer..i feel very connected to it..its not funny..but i think to say it in general..i'm more closer to my computers than my mum and dad..my parents are not at home..i have no place to go to..i cant drive...if i can..i'll be sure to drive to any beach or to any place to really be in peace and to just clear my mind..i'll be there in the morning..and just walk along the shores for as long as i can till sunsets..i havent really admire the sunsets in Malaysia...i should just try that..how i wish i can just get the hell out of my really troubled life..hahaha

well blog.. its not that i want to keep secrets from u..this was suppose to be a private blog..anyway...i have no comment whatsoever to anything right now...but as i am writing this blog..i'm thinking of just fully concentrating on my piano..my studies thats all..and no i dont wanna be so stress about my drums..its killing me.
about piano..yes fully 100%..i want to be as good as i dont know yiruma? hahah if thats possible..well why cant i? hahhaa i just have to stop comparing myself to other people...because if i do..i feel like im the worst piano player ever...cause they can seriously play and i cannot..maybe its because they pay full attention to their piano and they worked hard..unlike me..i try everything..and not great at it...and this is not what i want..i want to be great at something..and piano should be career next time...haha talking about career yes...double degree...one of it is music..i've decided..currently im in grade 6...if i can get through this exam by next month...wow..grade 7 baby..hahaha i can play my most favourite song by the moment 'bridge over troubled waters'..i'm really looking forward to grade 7..haha how grade is it if my piano teacher can teach me till i get into university...you know what...what i said last time about who is better drum teacher or piano teacher..i think i feel more connected to my piano teacher...well both are really good teacher..but based on the effort from the teacher..yes definately piano..hahah thank you uncle peter..for giving me those really motivating compliments..i dont hear that often from people..even those closest to me...

about studies...i've decided to go melbourne to further my studies there...and now what im feeling..is that i cant wait to go there...meet new friends there...before this i was really in a dilemma..choosing between taylors college in kl or trinity college in melbourne...well my dai sou recommend me to australia..and what she say is also true about her first encounters when she first when to college...and i think i get through life there...who knows maybe a better one..as i know..australians are really very kind..i think now its going to be a month till spm..so im gonna work hard starting today..19th..so yeahh just play my playlist from my computer..get way from it..take my biology book for this week and start studying...until next week onto physics..haha i think can..im pretty sure i can..u know why blog?...2 days of just studying intensively..i can get 57...and its far better than last time which is 40...and if i can study for 8 days straight..imagine the A's that i can get for physics bio chemistry english est morale malay add math and math...9 A's and dam a scholarship..well mum i told u that i'll try for a scholarship..haha i'll do that for u...

oh my god..i feel so motivated right now..i think i should keep this feeling up..it feels good..hahah so yeahh lets work hard..and light up the darkness..and get across that bridge over troubled waters..

days..i just need some faith.

well what can i say..trials result is really not satisfying and no its what i want..damn...and its just 2 months before spm...can i produce all the results that is satisfying and just creditable to go for college?..im going to australia..and i dont think so im going on february...im going national service before going to melbourne...well..lets hope or the best in spm and everything will just come true..more efforts of course...without effort there will be consequences...and no not this time im screwing this up...i'll be working my ass off starting tomorrow...

anyway..im still stucked with problems as always...it really do disturb me from concentrating on everything...im just filled with distractions and just a big annoying wall in front of me...i want to just express myself also cannot..some people are just not the right person to share it with...well its hard being me..when u've done so many mistakes and just sin all the things in the world..and its hard to forget and it just burden ur heart and mind everytime...and some of the problems just will replay itself everyday that i just wish to think something else but still its unbearable haih..

whose going with me to australia? is there anyone going to the same college as i am? at the same intake?whose gonna be my best friend? i seriously dont want to be alone..hahah but well..man has to be tough right?hahha i think i'll miss home until i cry...well i'll have 3 to 4 months of time to be ready and just u know prepare...not all the time fun..hahah i'll get almost all my results tomorrow...lets hope that i'll get those pleasant results...that will totally make my day..hahha light up the darkness..

days..its been so long..but im back.

it has been a rocky year..and i would want to emphasis on that..well trials been quite tough? well nows the holidays..didnt really plan..just see how it goes...haha only did watch movies...and thats what i am going to do untill the end of the holidays..haha well only went out once..and thats it...basically thats my holidays...well now is the time until spm ends that that will truly be the end of it..the end for school..and there's nothing more...to say the truth...i missed school..and i cant wait to go back to school...thinking back...well u've been schooling for almost 11 years? and all those friends that u've made and those fun and tradition that only can happen in that one particular school and only in that one particular group of friends...yeahh my childhood is pretty fun actually..until im exposed to realiti yeah...there was not as much fun as there was as i came up to secondary...lost touch with friends...taking up more responsibilities and stuff like that..haha well just thinking back..i think its school that made the guy that i am today..if it wasnt for school...i wont get to meet these great friends hahah..so i just cant imagine what it will be after spm and there wont be school until the day u die..i guess i try to do the things that i will remember in school..haha dont want to tell or plan..just see how it goes..

well its been so long since i've blogged..haha july 16...well..there was a lot of things to blog about...but its better to be kept..well to just know what it is and just sendiri bikin le..hahhaha haih..it has been a rocky year seriously...i've never been into such as big deep shit before...and i've never been into such a wonderfull day before..all i hope for is the better and i wish it come true in prayers..haha i guess i never want to stop writing...blogging is good haha talking about trials.well everyday sleeping at 2 or 3..trying to study as much as possible..doing exercises on past year papers..well to tell the truth..doing past year papers really do help in scoring in exam..no doubt..so im advising everybody to just do past year papers and understand by which chapters and just study based on the questions that u dont know...seriously this helps...and we should do this till the end of spm...yeahh...well i hope i will do well in my trials..

i've been struggling and just suffering for these few days..and i well its really complicated and just frustrating to not know how to solve the problems...in relationship and also in life...on the 11th..this will be the first time i've performed drums for a crowd...and i was eally glad that have this chance with a group of people to jam and play some really interesting songs..haha well i really want to thank you aunty keelay for the help...and also joel for his support..and many more...i think it really went well..just that i maybe playing too hard..well im sorry if its too loud..haha well thats just that for me that happened for this time..anyway..i cant wait for john legend's new album...i think it will rock the hell up hahha when i listen to it in youtube...it's the best..other than that..i want to buy the playstation move...haha i cant wait to buy the michael jackson game....and as well as some other games too...like racing cars and vanquish..hahah curently playing mafia and god of war...will finish these few games till the next game comes..hahah

there's nothing much actually...thats all ive gotta say..and ill write more in the next few blogs..hahah light up the darkness..and i hope there's somebody that can take their time to watch lord of the rings with me...all 3 films in one day...erm...i wish the problems will be solved and all of us can live a happy life=)

days..these are the days..

this month is my birthday month...and its now the middle of the month...birthday party had passed..birthday also had passed..the party was great..haha jia xin baked a cake..and it was nice..especially the chocolate top..erm there are 20 friends attended the party..it was crazy when everybody get drunk..haha world cup match with argentina against germany and germany won by 4 -0..haha played ps3...had a surprise before the party..everybody pumped balloons and just put it at the floor..haha well its was a night to remember...3/7/10..anyway...talking about my birthday date..well...school was fun..although i didnt get to aruba but still the class sang me a birthday song..haha and on that day paveena gave me a slice of cake during tuition..haha i got quite some presents especially the bluray lord of the rings..damn i seriously wanted it and they gave me that..haha well..these are the days..haha and yeahh my piano exam..it was a seriously total disaster..i thought i played it all wrong..when the results were out 2 days after that...im hoping for a pass..but i was granted with a strong credit with a 82.5 marks..haha the passing mark was 65 and distinction was 85..haha i was seriously happy..and now im going on for grade 6..hope i can do well in november..

well i started studying already...and im onto biology now...after biology..im going after the exercises on both science subjects and maths...will hope my plan will work..haha im so hoping that i can score for my trials and i could apply for my college in australia...well since im choosen for the ns..i have to rethink about this...but no i dont think i want to go..if i go i hae to waste a lot of my time and take the june intake which is very late...and if im choosen for the 3rd batch..then im totally sorry..i cant go..well..i was just talking with my dad...and im hoping that i could go to kl after spm and record some songs in my dad's friend studio..haha darl it will be great if u follow..haha well..after spm..i seriously got a lot of plans.and i wish to just get on with it now..but haih there's trials and spm..well im seriously worried whether i can do my best at it or u know score great at it...i dont want to screw any more things in my life..i've screwed up most of what's mine...and im not going to screw anything up again..tomorrow will be a new day for me..

talking about family?..dad..we always do forget of what happens when u get angry...but i still fear u....whenever ur angry..i just cant stand ur anger..but i know u have ur reasons too..family not much problems actually..its just that..maybe my relatives could show some support by just sms or facebook with a simple wish saying happy birthday?...he only cousin was 2? shermayne jie an maggie jie?..the rest? even wilson can forget my birthday?...this is just disappointing but im still close with u all...and i hope and i wish that i could spend more time in kl where and when we sed to have fun as relatives..i also wish to be every meeting u all have..but im living in ipoh and i have a life here...and its hard to go kl whenever i had the time because there's tuitions for me and of course a relationship so im sorry..maybe after spm?..i would totally love to stay in kl for a month or so?...if thats okay?

anyway im gonna think positive from now on..and tomorrow is a new day for me..im gonna change...and just learn what i learned in australia is manners...dicipline...and just courage..no cowardness..wont be shy...will be more caring and many many more..haih..trials are coming..lets hit the books till the very end of trials and lets be hardworking for once in our life and take responsiblity and just make everything work so that we could enjoy life in the future yeah? haha and yeahh i want to improve on my public speaking...like debating and stuff like that..so yeah..light up the darkness..

days..im just not god enough..

well in these 2 weeks...quite number of things happened that i wish to go back but what past is past and the future is still blur for me..haih..i lost in ISC for both snooker and badminton which is very saddening for me...and i lost in the school badminton championship too..i have lost so many things in my this 17 years of age...and none of it i ever won to be somebody..im just a nobody after all...now school reopened after 2 weeks of holiday...i've been getting shitty results and this is just bad..i think this will represent my results for trials and i think i need a change...haih i cant get myself to be like this for all my life...haih...

talkin back about me performing at jusco with tek yi in jusco...i think i made a lot of mistake..haih i sang and i played the guitar...i played with the wrong timing and i lost my lyrics when i sing...and i said some inappropriate things..haih..this is just some total disaster for a first timer like me..haih birthday party is coming..worrying about it...piano exam is in 2 weeks away...worrying about it..trials is in 53 days more...im seriously worrying about that...i hope eveything works out fine..

no man is a failure only if he puts in his soul to do those things that he love...
everything would start to fail if he doesnt have effort and commitment
there's no chance of success if we dont focus and control our life...
discipline is needed if we are ever to be succesfull..
no one wants to fail so dont judge people who won and be jealous over their win
every successfull man wont complain at anything

haih...im going down now and its time to get back up again..for those 53 days..i will work hard and get good results for trials..piano exams..i will spent at least 2 hours on the piano till exam...haih hope and prayed everything will work out fine for my life..there are just too many downs in my life avoiding me to be successful and i want to succeed in my life..at least for once in my these 17 years of my life..at least something to be proud about in the future...please god i prayed for this to make it happen...light up the darkness..

days...i need realisation...

haih...its been one hell of a week..i've been mistakes all along...and my previous blog is total shit ..people dont believe it..hahah erm well i just need to get back to myself and from now on i want to be brave to face my problems..i want everything now to go right...i want everybody to be happy...and i want every problems to solve right away...i want to be caring...i dont want a girl to cry for me because i disappointed or made her angry or sad...i want to be more sociable...i dont want to just not make friends and feel sad for myself...i dont want to be in a lonely world anymore...i think im punishing myself too much..i think im thinking and worrying too much...i need to stand tall now...i need to be positive everytime now..i dont want to be sad anymore i dont want to be depress anymore...i need myself to realise my mistakes and learn from it and never to do it again...

how am i suppose to keep both things normal at the same time?..which i think its hard for me..but i'll change...i wont do any mistakes and just u know think of what i should do and what i should say...does everyone has to be like this? be very very very very very carefull of each word and each action that he do..to avoid mistakes? or is it just me? is it maybe they are just sooo good at things that they dont have to be carefull and they wont make a single mistakes? i made those are just unbearable and just unbelievable for a guy like me...

i dont know...i just cant bear to see that everything is not working out all together and just cant bear to see anybody sad and all disappointed in me..i'll get so embarassed and just depressed...haih..i wonder how am i suppose to not make mistakes...is it so hard? i mean..every single tme is also my mistakes..and its really frustrating because how great it could be if i just dont make mistake...but at the end of the day a mistake will surely happen...haih...maybe i need to just understand the signals...and just really think it through of what im goin to do and what am i going to say..but sometimes this takes a lot of time because i think and think and i couldnt make out my mind..i dont know how does this works..i think i need some serious profesional counselling..hahahah..but not now..haih...trials and spm is right next to the corner..

i hope i can live like everyone and just be ordinary...i dont want to be the only exception and just punishing myself and not able to connect with society..haih...yeah i deactivated my facebook account...well its not because of society its about studying...i need to prove to those who dislike me..and i deleted my friendster..well no one is using right so yeah delete le..facebook is sometimes just so addicting..haha i'll blog..to express to just understand people more..and no its not for english improvement...seriously my previous is so immature and just so stupid..nvm..i'll make a change for u and for me..light up the darkness...

oh anyways tell me whose coming to my birthday party? i'll let everybody know in facebook..hahha u see the addiction in facebook?

days...its nice meeting u all.

well i think of what happened..i know i suck as a person a son a boyfriend a friend..i think its better for me to just keep away from everything..and just for as long as it takes to just keep quiet and just dont wanna care a single thing anymore..i think i'm better of alone..i dont want so many people to be so fucking disappointed in me..i think this is what best..since im ignorant or a bastard..well its just i dont know how to be a person ..and so since everybody is so hurt and so frustrated over me..i guess i shall just go away until the day where i will go to australia..well speaking of that..im very serious of going australia and just start my life from there..and i think i wont be coming back here anymore..if i do..i'd only see my family..since im such a worst friend u could all possibly have..i think i should cancel the birthday party and also farewell party too..to all the friends i had before...well thanks for everything...and yeahh...i think its better if im just alone...i dont want anymore of this...haih its just beat the crap out of me when someone just tell u how suck u really are..maybe i just suck..and im not a good person..i shall cancel all of my facebook friendster or msn...i no longer exist in the society today...for this blog..oh i will keep..it helps our english right? so yeah..goodbye for the moment i guess..

days...stomach failure..

since 3 weeks of exam is over..Mr.Mahandran is leaving...holidays just started or 2 weeks..haha and yeahh starwalk just ended yesterday...these are the things happening now...so yeah...i cant wait for my birthday party...anyway...talking about exams...hell its 3 weeks..and thank god it finishes..because arghh hard to cope with every subject..will have to focus on some..just some now...because now its just a very short of time so yeah..haih our class teacher is leaving..he had the transfer to another school...so yeah..the last day of exam..we did take a lot of photos..u can see them in facebook..haih who is gonna protect us in the school when he leaves? nvm its just a few mor months..we can escape the horror in school..haha and everything would just settle from there on..the only thing is our trial and spm results so yeah...holidays...what are my plans? well apart from staying at home? club everyday? sleep everyday?..yeahh pretty much none...going to watch movies from day to day if i had to..maybe will go out with friends..haha starwalk yesterday was epic...jia xin and i walked the whole 10 km..haha and after that met up with joel and chee ying..then e from stadium wak to de garden..it was seriously tiring for me...the day before i had tough badminton training..then suddenly walk so much..haha body ache all around now..hahhaa we ate at papa rich..then from papa rich we went to jusco for coffee..thats for the day..well yea thats all actually..

haih..its sad to know that rafa benitez left liverpool..well looking at the bright side he should...the club is in need of help seriously..now another manager..dont know who is it...somemore some of the big stars are going elsewhere...maybe these few years would be liverpools' worst..haih...hope they will bounce back to claim the premiership title..anyway...thats one thing..the other i've been sick since last month..i cant sing...i cant eat the food that i like..well i had a flu then it became serious...i got cough core throat and ulcer everywhere...then it takes 1 week to recover...and that period was going to have exams...then during the 2nd week..i started to get gastrics...then it became serious..and i got heartburn where ur stomach got a lot of acids..thn it rushes to ur oesophagus...yeahh and it just burns it..i was seriously suffering for the first 2 days...then after consulting the doctor...now im much better...but most f the times i'll be hungry and just very irregular...sometimes suddenly i will get hungry or sometims all of the sudden i'll get full and not to eat food...haha yeahh..

well the next thing now im all planning about is my birthday party and i cant wait..haha its been so fast 1 year already...and i still very much remember last year...hahah hope this year would be great...

days..the thing about love..

Love

Love will come find you
Just to remind you
Of who you are
Hold on
It will forsake you
Threaten to break you
Take what you got
Everybody laughs
Everybody cries
Sure it could hurt you baby
But give it a lil try
See that's the thing about love
Friends
Sometimes will blind you
Sneak up behind you
You cant give enough
Then life
It will embrace you
Totally amaze you
So you don't give up
Everybody laughs
Everybody cries
Sure it could hurt you baby
But give it a lil try
See that's the thing about love
Don't tell me that i'm not the only that's going thru it all
Ohhh sometimes I feel like i'm the only that's going thru it all
But its time
Oh its time
For me to shine
Hey
Its my time
Oh its time
For me to shine
Its my time
Said its my time
For me to shine
Its my time
Its bout time
For me to shine
Everybody laughs
Everybody cries
Sure it could hurt u baby
But give it a lil try
That's the thing about love
That's the thing about love
That's the thing about
That's the thing about love

days...im just a 0.1 percent..

i'm changing my mind again...and i'm admitting that i'm lost..like totally lost..from small till to this day..im those kind of person who doesnt know how to decide and make decisions...and i suck at it...seriously..from what i know..decision making for me is really hard for me...for a moment i choose this and the next im not..i'm so lazy to blog as im typing this...its all in my mind..and i got a lot to say...seriously..haih and i dont know where to start..sorry guys...please take ur time and just read okay? dont care how long it is...is just me trying to let everything out and just understanding me..haha and i need help? yeah...okayy

as i said decision making..how do u make decisions? how do u choose? how do u decide? well this is really a big question and u need professionals to tell u this..okayy..well u decide based on right and wrong...and u decide based on advantages and disadvantages so far so right..okayy...and u do not make decisions based on emotions or decide based on other people or decide just because ur short of time..and u have to think about every decisions that u made...right? well thats what i suck at..big time..why i suck?

reasons...decisons for me to make..i need like seriously a long time to make...and like say those big big ones that includes ur future yahh..it takes months for meto just make a single decision on what i want to study...okay..first i said to myself i want to study medicine and just be a doctor and help out the poor and help to cure diseases and just make the world a better place...but no..i dont want it anymore why? percentage for to be a doctor is very less for a person like me...and it takes time if u want to be a doctor..and and it suffers to become a doctor and speaking of suffering...i dont know how to deal with it...i dont like to suffer eventhough i had to to do something that i love...i dont even want to try to suffer for the better...thats me..not taking risks..haih..thats why i dont have the capability to become a doctor and now i want to choose engineer...for a moment i choose as a musician...for another moment hotel management and become a chef....so there's so many decision how do u make from it...and how to deal with it..

well everybody has to make decisions in their life no matter big or small...they have to be made...and making that decision..u have to be based on whats right for u and is it wrong to choose that..u have to based on consequences...like sometimes i get like..when i have to choose one from both that i love...i wish i have both but i cant...i have to choose one...thats when the problem starts..i want to do this and i want to do that...and i want to be great at everything...but how am i suppose to choose from what i want? does this happen to every one? or is it just me? im just a very very very small decimal places from the world ad i'm about to make the universe's toughest decision for myself...get that? hahaha anyway..i just think that i'm good at everything...is just i dont know which good stuff which i can choose from and be great at it...haha from what i am now...i'm still clueless of everything..i'm still under the illusions of what i'm going to be in the future...and making decisions right now...well this makes me afraid of not having a great future in the future..because i want to have the best future for myself..everyone does...right?

haih...im just worrying about everything...about what im suppose to choose and about what to study in the future...about every single little thing...im just worried...haih...what is wrong with me?...decision making is just so hard...dont everybody think so about it? like i mean it cant be that hard...u know some decision it just take 5 seconds and its the best decision among the others..how great it is when u make decision under that time...and its great because thats truely is the one decision that is good...haih..im just tired of all this decisions...its too much pressure and too much stress for this..and u know what if i cant handle stress i dont think i can be a chef..because if ur in hotel management...u will be dog barked..so yeah i dont like that...what field u stdy that u somehow u dont suffer and u just have a very easy and sometimes just a little bit more of work to do but still a nice future where u get a satisfying pay and just a wonderfull life...how to achieve that by making decisions about the future? how does my parents and brothers do that? how they overcome it...i want to know..im so very curious about almost everything..and i want to learn...but and then i learn..its all half bottle filled...

i want to live a life like in the past...i want to be like them...full of general knowledge...full of courage and just will of everything...i want to be like them..i want to be like brothers...thats the least i think that i can do...my parents..how to they get until this stage..how do they past their teenage life? haih..i just want to be like those people 10 20 years ago..i seriously idolise them..because of the man they are...its just so cool...and i want to be different..i just want in the future to be proud of what i decide today...i dont want to regret..thats why decision making for me is so god damn hard...how? how to deal with this..haih..this is a long blog and i wish to tell everything here..but its just too much in my mind..if anybody who is like seriously close to me and just the best friend that i needed to be here..i would seriously just tell every single thing right now..because i'm seriously in need of help to overcome problems like this...and its just frustrating..because u cant do it right...haha i'm a kind of guy who wants everything to be done efficiently and nicely...but for myself i dont do things the way i wanted for myself...thats why..haih..i even want for example...now in the town that im living has many cases of robbery and thief stuff like that particularly this year...and i'm like telling of actions to be done here so that it can be safer place by just building a security house at the front of the street and hiring police to patrol the whole place each day and the government pay them...and all this to be done by writting letter to the person in charge or to write in newspaper...hahah i'll get this kind of idea to just make things right here...haih..

based on that..i can see myself as a person who wants to make things that surrounds me to be at best and accordingly..but hell..still decision making is just hard u know...theres a lot i want to talk about..rational..movies...acceptance..forgiveness..most of it all is just life...hahah speaking of life...its very complicating..it just one of those things that man need to overcome in this matter of time...haha just problems that we everyday facing...how are we to overcome such problems..and im now experiencing life and trying to understand every problems from now...i'm gonna do something about this..im gonna list it out and write it on a book..and i think i can just based on the list..i will make life easier..i think like this its good...haha its like a diary actually...well see what happens yeah?

anyway...im still in a dilemma...haha i wish to let it all out but i just cannot put it in words...wel understand me..im just living the life with problems...and i hope god help me in this..hahha well...if ever things were easy...im sure life will be easy too..i hope it stays easy for the years to come..thinking of it...those people who commit suicide because of the problems that day face and they cant cope with it..i think they are just cowards and they dont want to face them..thats the problem...well im not like them...i want to face those problems..and i want to be tough and determine and just experience life till the day i die...light up the darkness for the road to be taken for our lifes yeah?..

days...is there any time?

just to freak everybody out...the answer is no...why? because trials is in 2 months away starting june as we speak..and another freaking no..why? because after trials...spm is like 3 months away? could u believe it? neither can i...and as we all know....time flies..and seriously...it's not what u call shit happens or or there's time...or or lets hang out...no man..when u seriously sitting for trials and spm and u say on that day..shit happens..my man...a brick shit happened..and its gonna give sore to ur butt as long as u are living in this pretty pathetic world man..hahah why pathetic?...recently...not exactly its actually happening...do u know that north korea started all the drama and south korea wanted war right now?..and and thailand...once peacefull land..with all so famous bangkok..now is turning into a massacre where the red shirts are destroying at nothing to change the government...poland flooded and the president died on a plane crash...jamica had inwars and people fighting..and there is world cup where everybody come to enjoy and watch in HD if u got astro beyond and support for the teams that u support..haih...world is pathetic nowadays...

well i'm currently getting shitty moments for my mid year exam...english essay paper...is the worst i ever wrote...chemistry haih..no point asking...sejarah and add math will also cause sit to happen tomorrow..and yeah...the natural and the good old routine that i always dream of not to have procrastinating which is scientificly proven to be good in a way that makes u think a lot...like my physics teacher like to say....if u think a lot..ur definately a science student..well for my situation is more on day dreaming...as in a dream that is totally blank...so i wouldnt really agree on calling myself a science student so yeahh...

haih...why do time past so fast when its actually going 24 hrs 60 min 60 sec everyday....haih...its because we use time wisely and we are at least doing something and actually realising something...now if u want to be good science student and experiment urself...try to just look at the watch for 10 minutes and count in second...will this be faster than concentrating urself on doing at least 2 long add maths question...yeahh take those like simultaneous equations...and see comparing which one is faster...or to make time past more fast..try like satrt a timer when u put ur books in a mess then u just tidy up ur room and just pack ur bag for school and maybe after that brush ur teeth and listen to a song and dance at it...will this be faster than counting each seconds in 10 minutes? of course it faster well do it urself and find out if u think time flies..well its because ur using it...doing something..realising things..which is good..but must do it in a good way..like for example studying right? hahaha

well gotta hit the books because tomorrow sejarah and add math is totally a shit happening subjects to have exam on...light up the darkness yeah?

days...what is important now? look at the big picture..

u know what...i guess i want make things clear and just u know just spill the beans..hahaha not exactly mean that i want to tell every dirty little secret or anything but just in general..haha right..haha..whats important in life?

now u have to look into the biggest picture...let ur mind be free and just think...what's important right now in ur life? is it friends? relationship? freedom of life? studies? music?tv?games? u name it..hahah but to me..as we look into the big picture..yes u begin to think...its our future is important..now future..what it means? to get a good job? to marry someone that u can depend for the rest of ur life...to build a family and live happily ever after?...i think this is the big picture..and we think back to our brothers parents...what have they done...did they overcome their years in teenage and abdolescent and achieve their dreamt future?...yes in fact they did...i dont care ur rich or poor..that has nothing to do with u...is a happy family thats what matters..

well if u dont understand what i just wrote...needless to say...our future is important..and to get what we want in future...is to have a good job and build a family with a wife/husband to stay with u for the rest of ur life right? okay...now as we teenagers..we have many things that we think it is important...but what is important right now is not the right path to lead to a future which i wrote above....and its not related at all...music..freedom of life..puppy loves..tv games..other than that...we are all neglecting that studies come first..and we all get distracted by all this temptations that we cannot escape...sometimes a hobby is just making us all get addicted to it and not really concentrating on what is important which is our studies...now tell me...does studies help in our future? of course it does because why if u have good results u can get agood job in the future...

talking about relationship at this age...is it really important? well i can go long about this..but to be shorten in words...its just really simple...there's no need to have a relationship right now....example those ppl i see everyday in facebook or blogs telling..oh my god i love u so much..i want to be with u for the rest of my life...i cant live with u....without u im nothing..shit like this..oh my god..like i say when u look into the big picture...why?why u need a relationship at this age...the sake of getting famous? the sake of showing off? or this is common..to be loved?...hahah come on...u are love by ur friends....and u dont need a lover..tell me..in our society today...which one of us even reached a relationship that lasted 5 years?...the only thing i know is that i got a friendship with this guy for almost 11 years...so yeah..u want a relationship that u wont get bored of it...and u wont leave other person for someone or something...or u leave because its not right or whatever...u want a relationship which is everlasting and just be with that someone till death to us part...so yeah...and those 3 to 5 months relationship is not love...is just puppy shit..sorry its puppy love..hahah typo..anyway...haih..whats the point having it now? there's always chances in university or college if u cant stand it..right?...and ur thinking how to find haih the love of my life just left me...well thats just negative of u..hahah when u look into the BIG PICTURE there's tons of juicy boobies and gorgeous babes waiting for u in university..hahaha

well..to be said the truth...nothing else really matters but studies....music? not important..as a way to release stress yes good...games(including sports)..not important...but for as health yeah very important and also to release those stress..haih..spm is coming...especially trials if u want that result to go overseas like me...yeah u need those results...well i still think that there's still time for me to study and work hard for good results...with the exception of being lazy..hahah yeah...i'm being lazy nowadays..and i should seriously be determine and stop using my phone..my laptop and entertainment such as ps3 and tv...gotta cut down..haha if i want to distress yes music and piano since im doing my grade 5 piano exam..haha

well i got a lot of things that i want to say..but suddenly my mind just came to a close...oh yeah...to those who is having a relationships and wanting to go for a relationships or even those who had been in a relationship and got dump..well please please stop and just think..is this the man/woman that i choose to be with for THE REST OF MY LIFE...well most probably is not..because its not a easy decision...that question will be answered when ur seriously mature enough to think that answer...and ur life is steady yeah...now our life is not stable...why? we are still studying..bare in mind ur a student...not a grown up adult who is ready to take life into another level..u dont have income for ur girlfriend or whatsoever...ur just wasting money on ur girlfriend from ur parents...is it better if u can save those money and use it for ur college or stuff like that?....well thats number 1...number 2 is...dont start a relationship...why...if u do..u waste time..and as i wrote u will waste money...and when problems started to come..ull suffer...and all of this will just affect ur studies..and this is not good..because why?...as i wrote just now...study is what is important right now...number 3...if ur dumped..or want to dump somebody...think properly...this will affect both...u know why?...because after a broken relationship...personality changes and everything it just changes sometimes for the worst and sometimes there a good one..because u tend to use it as a lesson..but most of the people that i know is all bad..haha so yeah...dont...if u start one..think properly..am i gonna be with her long?...is she the girl that i can depend on?...will he/she love me through good or bad times?...eventhough it sucks till u cant tolerate anymore...

well look at the big picture...haih..life..its like a line...ur a baby...a kindergarden kid...primary school...secondary school brother...college young man..university graduate...a man..jobman..and then a husband...a father...a a retired man..a grandfather..and it ends..yeah...this is the big picture...and when u think...from start to finish..we as humans we learn..and we need our studies to achieve this line's needs...and with puppy shits i mean puppy love and freedom of life or whatever aint gonna help but to bring more suffer to u...if u cant even understand or loved urself..how are u to understand or to love somebody?...if u cant even handle ur studies...why u have to add relationship to make ur problem worse?...well it all has to be u looking at the big picture and think..just take a moment and realise..what is right and what is wrong..because sometimes we do have to prioritize things in our life to bring balance to the life's line...hahaha light up the darkness and think about it..

days...i have some quality but not quantity.

it's been so long since i've blog hahaha sorry everybody...ain't got the time haih...recently just got very sick...and yeahh exam's coming..so thats why...anyway...the past few weeks i've been down..its like non-stop problems everywhere..it's like i can't do this i can't do that...i dont have the capability to do..and i dont have time and stuff like that...so yeah...its been really down..and just 2 days ago i got sick..now i'm still 60% only..haih..bad bad flu...recently there's this snooker competition...thought i got the form..who knows i lost to tht guy tom...i'm seriously frustrated with him..he play with me like those type of guys who pro like shit..but the next opponent he play is like the worst and it's totally opposite..i mean to me its not fair...if ur like so good at it..why not win it and not just throw it all away by playing so worse..haih..no comment on that..studies..well its been really intense...because we are all chasing against time to get ready for trials and spm..as for me.im waiting for trials..i'd plan to go australia at february to study my college there...so will need the trials results..if its not good then i have to waste my time and wait for spm results then i only go australia for july intake which is actually wasting a lot a lot of time..so yeah...and now i'm in a shitty moment because hell i cant even study and i cant even concentrate...which means im not dicipline enough and if thats so..i cant get good results..and now im sick..and i have the means to study but i cant focus because of the flu..haih..its been really shitty moments...

mid year is like just tomorrow and its freaking moral...and those 36 definition..i havent even touch yet..haih..its really sad...anyway...and on monday it was our class 5S5 class party..i took a lot of photos...for more reference log in to http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=177968&id=637846905&l=a8b68b64dc haha that day was fun..haha everybody was celebrating..we aruba caleb..which is cool..haha and its a farewell party for Mr.Mahandran and teacher's day party for our class teachers..and some are gambling some are even studying would u believe that? hahah we are taking photos..and acting crazy all around...makes it a nice day..haha

there are so many things that i wanted to blog about but..always the times are not right..and haih..missed it..now i've got totally nothing to say...more or less is all about studies and personality and u know life at the moment..hahah i always compare myself to my brothers..and sometimes i think to myself...in other words...oh yes..i think a lot..like everyday...i think and think and think about so many thing...things that i dream of being...things that i dream of wanting..things that should not happen..happened...and things that are going to happen...so yeah..i can say im a thinker and a dreamer..but do all those things that think and dream come true...well that only depends on my effort on that something..hahaha and now i'm sick of trying everything..and i should give up everything and just focus on one thing..and by that i can be successfull on that something and u know not to be half fulled bottle...and so i say...i mean...i tried snooker..want to be the best...squash want to be good at it last time...then came tennis..wanted a career based on that..but no...i choosed badminton..and badminton i cant be the best because i dont have the fitness in order to be the best..but my passion for it is very strong..and music...for me i played the piano and the drums and the guitar too..haha piano grade 5 currently.and there's like until february then i'll leave malaysia and there's no grade 6 only if i take it in australia...and drums i'm just learning for fun..and i want to be great..but i cant go any further than what i'm doing now...and guitar...i cant be the best because i only know chords and not tabs..haih.

in future i want to represent something...like badminton if i could i want to win trophies and i want to represent maybe college next time...piano guitar and drums..i want to make an album and sell...or even a band would be very nice..hahah snooker...when i still have the chance i want to represent the club to go and play elsewhere...but...all of this only depends on my effort...haih..if i keep on thinking there's no point only if i work hard and try to be the best...from my point of view..i think i have a lot of talents only to choose one..thats very hard for me..because in everyway i want to be best and everything..and i think to myself haih...no human in this world are perfect and so i say i need to choose wisely and make a plan and start focusing on what i want to be successfull at...hahahah yeahh...this is one of them dilemma..

i like swing music...dont u all like? i dont think so because why? swing music is very very old..haha i dont know why but i'm fond of old music..like really fond of it..haha jazz and blues and the types of genre that i like listening to..and these days i was really into swing music..singers like tony bennett..haha and so i remembered...last sunday...tek yi was performing at this jazz concert that me and my parents went to..haha he played darn well..eventhough some part are slightly stiff..maybe because its cold...haha that music really is touching..hahaha..how great it could be if im on stage performing...and other people have already done it..what about me? anyway..hahah that night was good at the second part where the jazz band came..haha the first part was the piano and trombone solo...dont really like it though..hahah yeahh..

well hope i get really well soon...and mid year is like tomorrow..and i better be ready now...haha...will blog about it next time..till then...light up the darkness..hahhaa

days..i'm out and i'll be leaving.

well i've been missing school like crazy nowadays..its time for me to get back on it..hahahaha sounds the same like the beyonce song...put ur ring on it...do u know do u know that beyonce songs are always repeating and they dont mean anything? hahahaha..anyway..haih..its hard man its hard..haha i think i'm lost with the society today...well i'm not following to anything right now...like whats my friends doing or saying or what are their status...any gossip or any thing going on in ipoh...i've locked myself up..maybe its a good thing?..anyway...thats just emo saying...

days are okay...went to kl and just got back..haha my cousin full moon and the baby i tell u is cute like shit..hahah but most of the time he is sleeping so u cant see much..hahha yeah...got sick when i came back..thats bad...everytime i go kl..when i came back..i'm sure to be sick..i dont know why...haih..

had been lazy and kept on procrastinating these days...

purposely skip school but kept on sleeping...

i have to change..if i want to be somebody..haih..this type of things is like..

a dog need to scratch a flea off..

anyway..life will be better if i sort out all my problems..and u know organise stuff..haha know or not guys...is time u and i..dont care about problem...if u do care then please sort it out...haha time to save more time to study...

do u know what i am trying to say to u?

hope i can finish all my revision and exercise by trials..haha

sorry mum and dad..enough i dont look like him..

but i'll try to reach my goals in the future..hahaha

days..u lost it.

its like one week again and again and again...haih...time passes like shit flushing down to the drain...in that kind of speed..hahaha relating everything to shit is funny...it may sound disgusting but its interesting..rather than u saying oh time flies..haha sometimes u have to express in a way that makes ppl say something about it anyway..haha soo i skip school on monday...went school for three days and then on friday i skipped again..haha in school there's nothin much to do...its better if u stay at home and u sleep..haha u know built up ur healthy body..hahaha..school was okay anyway..haha erm weekdays nothing much actually normal school and tuition..and im chasing my dreams..thats what u need right now..haha well form 5 its been shit and its been good..haha sometimes u just dont know what u will expect when things come..haha i felt pity towards my friend..well somethings u know u just cant destroy it because of some absurd reason..haha dont mention anything..

well i'll talk about the pesta ria..haha it was saturday...went there and its shit with ppl..hahaha..played almost all the games and won quite alot..choong yang won a teddy bear..haha it was really sunny and of course shitty hot..food sucks..games are easy to win..sorry to say but 5S1 maze is way better than 5S2..haha..5s1 at least u can play games at the end...5s2 u just walk around the maze with belly dancers and nothing more so its a waste of money...hahhaawent there at 9 and came back at 2...went to badminton training straight after that..came home then went to club snooker...then went after club straight to jusco shopping with mum and came home around 10...so i went out the whole day for saturday..hahah..


sunday was in club the whole day..tiring like shit knows what..hahaha..thats all for the weekends...started studying and i hope i can be ready when its time..yeahh hope that i can get what i wanted..monday till today...im exhausted...sleep in class everytime...dont have energy to even walk the stairs..haih...i need to skip school and rest..haha and my dear friend,mr wong jin yang has lost my bio tuition book...needless to say that the book was my bible and he lost my book for not even a day...haih..this is really frustrating and annoying...but he did photostat a new one...but thats not what i want..i want mine back..haih...

so people...form 5 lo..u know what to do...last year...its time to have fun and enjoy ur last year of schooling..once u stop schooling u'll sure regret for not having the time to really appreciate and enjoy ur schooling time..u know..study also must study...SPM mah....who doesnt want to? if ur still not studying..as a kind friend...i would like u to get on with ur boots and start walking..in other words meaning that u have to start studying okay?...so yeahh...make ur papa and mama proud..haha.

u know what i mean?

days..i got yours and you got mine..=)

ching ming is over for me..well it was the same routine every year..only thing is shorter because its quite clean so yeah...anyway...thats all about the last weekend..for the last weekdays...well nothing really special in school..just some really crazy times in school..haha i would just simply say foul languages for no utter reason..haha maybe thats me in school..haha and seriously caleb spoils my mood in school..thats why i feel annoyed and frustrated..hahhaa nevermind about that..anyway..friday it was good friday..and it was a good one..haha went to watch clash of the titans with meng and choong yang..sadly tek yi couldnt join..the movie was awesome...but really lack of something during the fight with the kraken and hades...crazy just 1 hit ko...and the kraken..just the friggin head spoils the whole action..haha the kraken should like hit it away or something..or the demons should just snatch it again...make the main character to fall or whatsoever...just to make the movie more thrilling and more action..but there's none...hades oh my god...a demigod send a god back to hell in just a throw of a sword..they should like make it more interesting by u know destroying the sword..and u know just fight? eeee...it's too short i should say..haih...should make it like a 3 hour movie...nvm about that...

it was saturday then..got nothing to do..just training..and club...haha sunday today was all in club the whole day...my snooker is getting good..haha..badminton sucks like shit..haha.thats all about my ester day....i didnt get to eat any egg..thats so sad..i didnt even celebrate..well..i'm planning a farewell party for me....before that...birthday party..haha i want to like call a lot of ppl...u know its like the last year...haha should make a good impact by calling all the friends and anybody who i knew or know..like around 15 or 20? haha...farewell party would be after spm...so yeah..dont need to rush on that...well thats what i've been thinking recently...and oh yeahh..i was thinking of buying a drum..should i? then there's time for me to jam..haha who wants to join?...

apparently im not going to school on monday...so yeah..been having this odd headache..so i gotta stay at home...its late now...gotta go.light up the darkness...

days..it's already started..

after sunday....what happen..starting of school aint that good for me..hahha i got back my results and it sucks big time...didnt do much during school...it's just my phone is off the whole time...the laptop is kept for the weekdays and yeah it was just a mp3 player and a pile of books and paperwork to be done...so yeah this week is really...a transformation for me..i became someone that i'm not...haih i think i'll keep what i am now till the end of spm..i think this will upsets many ppl...but i have no choice t be dicipline and make a serious effort for this year...so yeah..im sorry for being rude.im sorry if i ever scolded with a loud voice..or even say foul language where i dont have to..hahha yeah...but i'll miss it...it's form 5 mah..it's like the last year..and u know..u need to have fun in school before everything ends after spm...everybody will go their separate ways..and i hope that i'll have my best friends with me...and we will keep in contact till like forever? hahaha so yeah...and most probably i'll be leaving to australia to study after spm..so yeah....i think its sad for me..because most of my friends are going kl for their college..and i'll be left of their league so yeah...hahah i think its time i start appreciating my school life here in malaysia...

well school this week...is okay lah...in a sense we had fun..hahha erm...it was not tiring suprising for me..hahah i did sleep in the afternoon...anyway..i'm living in a life now that is set in the 90's..hahah it is so old fashioned..haha i dont know why but i like it that way....i like being old..thats just something wrong with me..i dont go with trends...i dont do social stuff..well maybe its just my nature...but anyway...study hard yeah guys?...its the final year...lets make our school and parents proud with the results we can produce...hahaha this is my final advice..

oh yeahhhh i bought a present for my mum it was yesterday friday i went jusco and bought a lamp and a glass with words saying i love u mum and somemore very loving stuff..hahah it didnt wow her..but i think she likes it..well hope she likes it..hahha yesterday was a long day...after school then went for piano lesson..straight after that after taking my golf things..then went to jusco and bought the present...went to RPGC after that...played snooker and golf at the driving range..then we went swimming...bryan did tag along for snooker and golf...her went back for dinner....we lied to the receptionist saying that bryan is a member...he cant swim there.so yeah..after a few laps...i have to leave....i was late for dinner...kena hood from mum and dad...so i didnt eat my dinner..and went for tuition..during tuition break went with jia xin to grab popiah..hhaha we ate a long the way..she bite my chopsticks..hahah thats cute...then went home and ate the worst chicken chop i ever eaten...hahha mum open up the present...she hood me for putting the present at the wrong place..i wished her goodnight..gave her a hug..kissed her and said happy birthday to her..and we went to sleep shortly after that..hahha i woke up today and blogged this..hahah so yeah...happy birthday mum..

days...a holiday in march..hahahahah

arghh its been a week since the holiday..and it really is fast..time flies..i dont know why..also i didnt get to online..thats why there's no time to blog so yeah..erm..well holiday was fun..haha first it starts off with me meng and tek yi...haha they came to stay over...me and meng went for golf and snooker in the afternoon at RPGC...then along came tek yi...i went tuition..they were hanging out at the jazz bistro there...we then get all crazy in my room..haha we laughed..took photos..took a funny crazy video...danced..singed..we even called MCD at nidnight...played ps3 till 3 in the morning..then played computer games until 5? then sleep..hahhaha thats so unhealthy...but we had fun...

then came sunday..me and jia xin were hanging out in jj..haha we had a great time since a very long time..hahaha we watched alice in wonderland and went shopping the whole day(i think post this blog before)..i think it was tuesday that i went jogging with my mum..haha and all the days i did went to tuition..haih..wednesday was an exam day in maziah so yeah did get to anywhere during that day...then it was thursday went out with meng bryan tek yi kang wei bianca and sean..hahahha erm first off me meng and bryan..we played snooker then went to watch the book of eli..its a very very good movie..hahah after that went to play snooker again..and bianca and sean came along...then tekyi and kang wei came too...we went to mcd for a tea time..haha i had to leave after the hang out for my drum class...haih..

then came friday...me chee ying and jamie went out to have a movie..hahah..we watched from paris with love..its a very nice movie..hahah funny and a lot of action...after the movie we went for a cup of tea...then after that it was around 5 something we had to leave...we went to swimming club..i played snooker for like a game or two..then i had to go back for tuition..hahhaa..it was saturday...haih i had to not go to my badminton training just for the snooker competition...it was an inter-team group...well i lost my first double match...the next i won...hahhaa adn we emerged as champions..hahaha it was a long day..my second brother came back...they will go to taiwan to take their wedding photo's...and yeah...it was sunday hang out with jia xin and after a long day in club...we had a family talk for like 2 to 3 hours...haha non-stop..haha...and thats how it ends the holiday with liverpool losing to man utd 2-1..haih...well i've set my plans and i've set my goal...and i'll sacrifice some...for my spm..so yeah...long came a journey in jail...just for 9 months and it wont kill ya..so yeah...light up the darkness..

days...back to the days where it makes u happy.

ahh it's been so long since i've blog...everything is at the wrong timing..haha anyway...im going back to the day where it is chinese new year..haha my chinese is short..haha its only for 3 days...then i already have to go australia already...chinese new year is just like every year actually haha cousins from kl came up for a night...and we gamble..haha its like a tradition already..haha anyway...australia was awesome..get to know the environment and the life there...its for 2 weeks..haha erm went to melbourne sydney and gold coast...melbourne was great..the life there is really high class....one thing i like about australia is that ppl aint shy and they are very enthusiatic..haha..nothing like malaysia...and its a nice weather there..i went there it was summer...same temperature as malaysia but with cold winds...strong winds..saw the university of melbourne and i want to study there..haha its nice there..it was tiring walking here and there but its worth it..haha saw many things cant really enjoy everything...there's more...and we are chasing to experience..so its like time short..but its okay i learned a lot this trip i went to australia like twice before but i kind forgot everything..haha maybe i'm young..dont know anything..got to eat my all time favourite fu jian fried rice..haha and my milk tea with pearls...sydney was great...the life is just great...went to see the university of sydney and UTS...well friendly speaking i like more of sydney than melbourne...but i like the university in melbourne than in sydney so yeah...its kinda different..haha then went to gold coast...movie world..haha i sat the superman rollercoaster..its one hell of a ride..haha gold coast life there is free like what only..haha...didnt get to see the university there..haha yeahh thats all really for australia...this pictures in my facebook tells it all..haha

back from australia..then one week after that is my monthly exam..haha i had not even studied anything or done anything...and i just came back from australia..and i didnt really get enough rest..haha so yeah..that 5 days of death was unbearable...speaking of goldcoast australia....when i was coming back on that day...we got a warning that there is a tsunami happening the time we are suppose to take off..haha we were worried that the flight might delayed..haha it was scary actually to actually know that the place we are staying are going to have tsunami..hahah then during exam week...i got news from my brother that australia got hail storm and floods in melbourne...thank god that we came back before this happens..haha..anyway..yeah..thats all for it...friday tek yi and meng came over for sleep over...pictures in facebook says it all...we had fun in the room most of the time..took videos and pictures...we were crazy..haha played ps3 till like 3 something..then played computer games till 4 something then only sleep...haha crazy...anyway yeah its good times..

sunday i went out with jia xin...its been so long we didnt hang out..haha and we had fun on that day..it was one of the best day for me in 2010..haha didnt had much fun since last year..haha well we watched alice in wonderland..it was a good movie..haha and today which is monday...i took my grade 5 theory ABRSM exam in my school..it was quite an easy paper..but i lost 5 marks for my italian terms..haih sad...well holidays now are going...and there are plans to do..hope i use it wisely...but its better if its like for 2 weeks..haha..anyway light up the darkness...i need to sleep...

days...chinese new year a week away..

nothing really happened this week..haha erm saturday was a crazy for replacement school..rushed bio homeworks and add math all in one day...all i can say is...it is crazy..haha..anyway..my pants got teared during training today..hahha every step i go it gets bigger and bigger...darn it...haha made me walk like a sissy..

arrghh..snooker is frustrating...one moment ur great..the next moment u play like shit..haha this happens to me for 2 freaking days now..haha..i'll have my revenge soon jeffrey..haha well..sunday night...thought of going parkson for a little shopping...but the amount of cars and crowds..well cant shop for the weekend...for the weekend...was shopping plants with mum..haha and bonding time..since im like going australia and she is staying in ipoh...all alone with dad...pity for her..well..we did shop in jj...and manage to get what we want for chinese new year...haha year of the tiger....we should wear more red and yellow shirt..since its the year for wealth and stuff like that...but my dad think otherwise.haha we should wear black and wear dark blue..haha..this means nothing...


bet u think i'm crazy...i'm missing michael jackson like crazy everyday..i dont know why...but yeah...maybe because he is my idol..so yeah...its been since june...last year...well..something are just some that u cant forget eventhough it takes a lifetime..i'm still listening to his songs everyday..anyway..there's this statement i come up with..hahah it sounds stupid but its the truth...everybody in the world even among us loves flowers right?...so in that case..we are totally attracted to them..especially the ladies...meaning we are actually totally attracted to sex organs..haha right?...


well...thats all for this week..light up the darkness...im still struggling with life...but it all ends..when chinese new year is around the corner...every will be back...everything will be fun and eveyday i get ang pow..weeeee..hahha dont u love to get ang pow..hahha

days..last week of january..

what a week what a week..hahah...school was altogether busy like shit..and i wouldnt want to imagine now as it is the five week now...anyway...relationship is being undescribable..so yeahh..wouldnt want to emphasize on that..so yeahh..its all good now..its good if we all have good communications and everyone understands everybody...

i bought 2 books this week..hahah erm a book about how u increase ur reading rate and a book about the apocalypse 2012...hahah i will finish em fast... and arrgghhh...form 5 is so busy lahh weiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii......and its like the friggin last year de....i'm gonna miss school..haha..and i'm gonna miss everything that i had in secondary life..from friends to moments..haha..well thats life right?

anyway...i bought a lot of movies...but i dont know when to watch it..haha..like around 24 of pirated so called 'blu-ray disc' hahha..anyway will make time in the weekends to watch it..plus there's 2 ps3 game to finish...hahhahah...school also so busy...still make myself busy with movies and games..what is this...haih...well...for y'all info...im going australia on the 3rd day of chinese new year...and will be back after 10 days...

haih gonna miss out things in school..haih...and march exam is near...school exam..thoery exam also..and practical in june...trial at august..doomed..currently with chemistry...so yeah..gotta work hard lo if ned to get good results right?...

fourth week...well...i want to save money also le...need to buy a phone..its the end of january already..haih...well light up the darkness..

days...third week of school..

haih..what a dramatic and yet busy week...school is insane with homeworks..and so as tuition...especially school..when u have to like do essays and copy essays..thats the annoying part...well...school was good...saturday got replacement for chinese new year..have to rush the chemistry peka..and i did finish it...remembering friday...it was soo cool..i went at night tuition with tek yi and ji axin kc leong..then me and tek yi were like jamming at this restaurant..it was sooo cool...haha...i love it when i'm jamming with anybody...it feels good...and also remembering..21..haha liverpool win tottenham..haha i was so happy for that day..eventhough im tired..anyway yeahh...been sleeping very late lately..haha and theres like no time to study or revise form 4 syllabus..haih..this is saddening...


well nothing much to say actually..haha..nothing really much happenned...apart from relationship problems..well...my new watch got problem..now sent for repair...badminton on sunday in club..one word...suck..haha..i get to love more and more of my drums..haha and i'm getting happier and happier with my piano...cuz i get to improve..hahah..im getting more and more frustrated over homeworks..and more and more blur about my ambition..im getting brankrupt...haha..and yeahhh news for the week is...piggy passed away..my first badge of guinea pigs is now all gone...second badge is fighting and still around...third badge is coming soon..next friday going to buy them..haha...piggy's so cute...and suspected to be pregnant...but unfortunately she died..


well...form 5 is soooo busy....and im glad that i'm still hardworking..if i had the attitude that i practice when im form 1 or 2....my spm would be in jeorpardy..haha so bless god..for this..haha..but im still procrastinating...which is a bad thing...so yeah..that is what the problem is now...haha..in school...me and caleb were talking about religion..haha..jews protestans and catholik..well it was quite a talk....i dont know why...but im really interested in history now...haha...maybe in the holidays if there's time...i would check up on history of malaysia and stuff like that...well in other way..it helps in my subject too..but unfortunately is in malay...so cant help it..and we were talking about the sultan johor....sadly the sultan mangkat the week after...thats a sad case..haha..well thats all for the week actually...light up the darkness..
remembering piggy..

r.i.p..

cool eh?

fourth week will feature during the weekends..sorry will sum up the week to a blog from now on..unless theres really a lot to tell..

days..second week of school.

oh my..another busy week..haha okayy...well this week i need to rush my homeworks..tuition homeworks and even theory..haha...school homework..all has to be finish by friday..chinese essay english essay and malay essay..well..i managed to finish it all and even pass it up on friday..haha..maziah tuition was really good...i get a lot of tips for my karangan and novel tips too...well got her homework and i need to pass it up like freaking tomorrow...and today is like sunday...haih...then theory i got sooo many pages to go..arghh..which one to do first??anyway...bio folio for mano tuition havent even start yet...haih...well this one i have to do when im doing my revision..haha..school malay lisan..i finished de..haha..thank god..one burden is off my chest..hahah...yeahh..second week is that busy...somemore...i think its tuesday?...i slept at 8? then woke up at 3...then finish my homework till 6 30 then go to school..how awesome is that.haha.


this week..my second brother and mum came back at wednesday i think...hahah we had our challenge...he went back at saturday..erm..my ps3 is updated..haha with songs pictures and movies..haha so yeahh its good if i can buy my dream phone that is sony ericsson aino...haha..and yeahh..my another dream is to buy a drum...dont know my mum allows or not..haha..me and tek yi went to the friday night class..for chemistry kc leong..haha its good..well at least better than the afternoon one..where there is like so so many ppl..haih...i think i'll fix my time for the night one..haha...yeahh

i'm beginning to work hard for my piano now...and so as my drums..haha..thats a good thing..haha..oh no...liverpool lost in the fa cupo torres and gerard is injured...and draw with stroke city in the premier league on saturday..oh no...how like that...hope they win with totteham on wednesday night..well im going to sleep at 9 and wake up at 3 to watch it..haha...hope on that day i dont have any homework...must finish by 9..hahah..yeahh...my singing has improved says by my teacher..haha exclude that i eat cheese before i sing..haha..erm badminton on saturday was really challenging...oh my...my leg..my stomach all.. muscle pain now...god..it hurts...well what to do...u have to move to keep fit..haha drums lesson was sooo cool on thursday...i cant wait to get my own personal drum..haha


saturday was my snooker competition..haha i walk over the first match...then second round..versus bernard hwa..but he insist to play on sunday...so yeah...sunday after eating lunch with mum...i went to play...won with bernard hwa 2-1..haha we played really very very slow..haha almost like 2 hours of play...he cant enter balls so does i..haha...then after his match..i were to play with ben...haha thought it can be easy..so i played fast...but everything seems so wrong when he came so close every frame...in the end i won 2-1..3rd frame got a lot of pressure...i even shouted come on..haha and everybody got a shocked...i entered from green to black..haha..so yeah..then i ate my dinner...played with bryan liew...oh my god...the most exciting and pressure 3 frames of my life..haha but sadly he won..1-2...1st match he won..then 2nd i won...3rd...wow...we were fighting for pink..and i missed the pink...haih..and for that i lost..i cut it too thick...so result of a planted ball..haih...well it was a good game...yeahh...wow..snooker competition...interesting and fun..anyway...thats all for my second week...light up the darkness.haha